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Title: Complicate Me (The Good Ol’ Boys)
Author: Best Selling Author M. ROBINSON
Genre: Contemporary Romance
Release Day: September 14th
Cover Design: Rebecca Marie at The Final Wrap
It was complicated, it was
also just the beginning.
A
decision.
A simple
choice.
There is always that one
moment in life where things could have been different. That one moment where
you could have chosen a path that would lead you down a certain road.
A different life.
It was easier to pretend
that
we were still best friends, and that she was my girl and I was her boy.
Pretending was better
than
knowing the truth...
I. Ruined.
Us.
I had her.
I lost her.
I love her.
All I did was complicate
us.
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My brown eyed girl sat
on our blankets with her arms wrapped around her knees, hiding her face. The
tiny frame that I adored so much shook uncontrollably, only heightening the
deepest sobbing that escalated with each passing second. It was such an
intimate moment, not to be shared with anyone, especially me. Alex didn’t cry. I
watched her bawl for the first time in my life. I had never seen anyone cry like
that before, and it shook me to my core, slicing me whole, and making me feel like
I was dying. Carving a memory that I would take to my grave.
There was no going
back…
No erasing.
No do overs.
No
deleting.
What I witnessed
tonight would be my purgatory; I would now close my eyes and forever see her
falling apart in front of me. Shattering before my very own eyes and I found it hard
to breathe.
Hard to move.
My feet were glued to
the goddamn floor as she continued to weep, sob, bawl, violently sucking in air that
wasn’t available. I accepted it all; each tear that fell from her face becoming pieces of
me. Circulating through my veins and blood, it flowed endlessly, a river of her
sadness and sorrow and of my broken promises. No beginning or ending to her
cries, just an infinite current, flooding the hole
where my heart should be. The shadow of her trembling petite body reflected off
the walls, leaving a trail of regrets in its wake.
Mine.
Hers.
Ours.
Growing up in a small
town you overheard a lot of things. People talking, stories told, town gossip.
You listened a lot. You learned a lot. Tourists, townies, friends, and especially family
all shared wisdom and advice that you think you will never need.
Bunch of bullshit.
They say you have that
one moment in life where things could have been different, that one moment
that changes the course of your life or the direction you could have taken. That
one moment that could forever change you and everything you wanted to be true,
everything you wanted to believe.
One simple decision
could
alter your entire future.
My entire world.
I would forever
remember this moment for the rest of my life. This is the moment that changed
everything. This is the moment where I took another direction, another road that
led me to my own demise. My own
regrets. I should have walked in there. I should have apologized. I should have
begged for her forgiveness. I should have promised that I would never hurt her
again. I should have done whatever it took to make her look at me the way she had
our entire lives.
But I didn’t…
I did none of those
things…
Not one.
Nothing was said
between us.
No words.
No actions.
I was a coward and
couldn’t do it. I couldn’t see her like that. I couldn’t look into her eyes and know that
I had hurt her. That I had disappointed her. That I ruined her love and lost her
respect for me.
The boy who promised
he would never hurt her.
The boy who swore he
would always protect her.
The boy who vowed he
would never let anything happen to her.
That same boy was me.
I was the reason she
was bawling.
I was the reason she
was hurt.
I was the reason she
was broken.
She knew the truth. It
had finally caught up to me… I shattered her illusion that I was hers. I ruined the one
good thing I had in my life. The girl that owned my heart was bleeding out for me in
a way that I had never seen before. The house was no longer our safe place.
I had brought my
hurricane with me…
I couldn’t risk
the possibility of losing her permanently if I walked in there and admitted
my truths. She wouldn’t love me anymore, she wouldn’t look at me the same
anymore, and she wouldn’t be mine anymore.
My brown eyed
girl.
The girl that I had loved
all of my life.
The same girl that I
would
love for the rest of my life.
Alexandra.
I gave her the only
comfort I could in her moment of despair. I turned around and left. I walked down
the stairs and got into my truck. I turned the engine on and drove my sorry
ass home. I took a shower and never once looked at myself in the mirror.
I pretended that nothing changed. That I didn’t cause her pain, and that she didn’t
know the truth. That I didn’t see her sobbing and that she wasn’t even bawling to
begin with. That we were still just best friends, and that she was
my girl and I was her boy.
My Half-Pint and her
Bo.
It was better than
knowing…
I ruined
us.
Best Selling Author M. Robinson loves to read. She favors anything that has
angst, romance, triangles, cheating, love, and of course sex! She has been
reading since the Babysitters Club and R.L. Stein.
She was born in New Jersey but was raised in Tampa Fl. She is currently
pursuing her Ph.D in psychology, with two years left.
She is married to an amazing man who she loves to pieces. They have two
German Shepherd mixes and a Tabby cat.
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